SO CONSUMING, SO RAW, SO DARK, SO INTENSE, SO GRITTY, SOOOOOO EPIC!! - Kitty Kats Crazy About Books
I was four years old when I learnt what evilness the world could bring. I fought through life with my scarred soul, wrangled through the dark empty nights where I’d pray I didn’t wake up the next morning. I would shut my eyes and mentally take myself to my happy place.
The sound of waves crashing on the sand under my feet.
The final time the cold blade pushed up against my thigh, and I waited for my blood to trickle over the other One hundred and thirty-six scars that covered my skin— never came. Who was this man who just saved me? He had no idea how close I came to ending myself that day. I was ready to blow my brains all over the bedroom walls and I had a nine sitting under my pillow to prove it.
Some people have families, I had engineered human killing machines surrounding me my whole life. I’d been a part of this unit since I was a baby, raised in a community that was shut off from the real world. A community where we were nothing but empty vessels, until Hella (my best friend) and I escaped. Hella took us to a girl who was in foster care with him before he was summoned into The Army. After finding out yet another complication in my life, I needed space. I booked in to a run down apartment, ready to clear my head. Only my head didn’t clear, because I was haunted every night from the screams that would vibrate through my walls.
This is not a story of a perfect man coming in to save the day. This is a story of what happens when fate interferes and two completely broken souls collide.
*Potential triggers lie within this book.
** This book is gritty and contains dark content.
One Hundred Thirty Six Scars
Holy junk – do NOT click this book if you have triggers from sexual abuse or violence and torture.
A young girl, just a baby in fact, four years old is being tortured by her father. Her teacher is shocked at the drawing she presented in celebration of Fathers Day. One hundred thirty six scars – one hundred and thirty six times her father has assaulted her. She wears each one drifting off to a different place when he comes for her.
Agent 316 is trying to escape again. Beast is not a part of the military we all know. He was taken from his mother who unknowingly gave him to the devil. He is trained to kill, obey and not break any of the six commandments set out by his commanders. This time Beast does get out and finds himself a member of the Devils Own MC. The men he fled from are looking for him but he stays hidden to some extent and he will survive but what he cant get out of his head is the cries of a young girl and its time to help her.
Years later, Beast is the President of the MC along with his best friend and VP Hella. Hella also fled The Army at the same time Beast did. They have trouble and that trouble leads Beast to Meadow. Only then does he feel her one hundred thirty six scars with his own hands. He will protect her with his life. He did it once not knowing her but this time is different.
This is a tough read. There is a lot to the story and a lot going on as you move through several years. You need time to wrap your brain around everything that is going on. I did have to read some pages a few times in order to keep things straight but that wasn’t a bad thing. The story is so deeply written in order to remember why things were happening I had to concentrate on what had happened all those years ago.
If you like very dark books this one is for you. There is only one really rough part concerning Meadow and her father’s abuse but reading her emotional torment is heartbreaking. Meadow’s character is broken just right for lack of a better term as is Beast. The other issue for me is that I didn’t really understand the end. I wouldn’t say it’s a cliffhanger but something isn’t right and Im anxious to see what’s next.
Thank you Amo for the ARC. Review to post to Ramblings From Beneath The Sheets.